I'm at work now. First time blogging at work... never did I attempt it @ PRSS. Absolute "Orchard-Area" seating position man, just HOW TO BLOG?!?!



Honestly I'm feeling really mood-swing. No my period is not the ultimate cause but I think it is the fact that I realise I'm back to square 1 and once again I have to restart every single effort, sweat that was shed and It just feels so draining.


I hated my sedentary life... it caused me to gain a total of 8kg in 1 year. its 8kg.

Seriously..................

The boring days at work just kicks in during the school holiday period. And at a new environment, i never failed to do the ultimate CLEAN-UP! Throwing away past years of work and thrash, sweeping the dirtied floor, dust&dirt-collected wardrobe & shelves. The ultimate Newcomer maid-to-be.

Initially it was far more worse, dont even have any "leg space".

And this is how much clearing of files i can clear and stack them up!

Another lot of mess to clear... next mission to be done in the next couple of days!

Went to Bukit Timah, had Simple Bread for dinner and Ben & Jerry's @ Dempsey Hill Ice Cream for dessert. Tony drove past newton circus and yeah, past the previous school I did my relief period at; ACS (Barker Rd). Those memories just came back of how i journeyed to newton every morning for 3 weeks, waiting for bus 170 or 161. Honestly, i missed my days at ACS. I really missed there. Missed the people. Even though seriously there isnt much of any social contact with them. I believe friendships are build thru time.

I wonder how are you?

And today, marks the day, my last and final day, at ACS (Barker Rd). A short period of 4-days of Mentorship actually extended to 2 weeks cum another 1 week of Relief period there after the sudden resignation of that new CCPE without serving his notice period. (So my stay at ACS ends up to be 3 weeks! 27 Sept to 17 Oct! ) And surprisingly, though i feel there isnt (actually is none at all.) much social life there, but i pretty much enjoy my stay, and i kinda like the school practices in certain areas ONLY, which other schools did not adopt.

I work well with my HOD (even though he is actually not considered my RO) & the Sports Secretary (: of course occasionally assisting the HOD of Student Development aka the Discipline Master. I must say the PE teachers there are all guys, and they look stunning. Hahaha!! Ok wth! I meant like they are like my eye candies in school (: (: (: all so sporty, tanned, HANDSOME omg! and of cos.... all married/attached already la DUH! -.- Anyway that's not the point, the point is, i learnt and i appreciae my time there despite the journey of travelling every morning.

I left an environment i'll never forget (just like how i did last month when i left Bedok Town) cos before i left the school, the HOD actually have a chit-chat session with me. It's an unexpected chat session of which he gives me the chance to open up to him my views and opinions of the school system, their practices and probably share with him my experience or any other practices that other school adopts... (since i've been a roving for a while!) I really like this sharing-session. Because i feel i have the freedom to share and open up to him my ideas and feedback, which is smth i've nv had the chance to do at the other schools. I feel appreciated to be given this opportunity. (: So whatever comes my way ahead... (which is my next posting, this time is permanent posting to Anglican High!) hopefully God will give me the strength to adapt well in a new environment, learn as much as possible, do not let my company's bullshit upset my status as a CCPE in the school... and most importantly, give my best in all that i can do. (:

God bless my 30 minutes of reluctant-morning-walk from home to MRT and from MRT to school for the next few months to come!

Hey everybody! After my fantastic life at Bedok Town, currently I'm on duty as a Mentor to a new CCPE at ... Anglo-Chinese School (Barker Rd) ... Yea... it's the secondary school... the all boys school... the... unexpectedly, notorious, rich kids school... haha! The school is located at Newton area, so every morning is like Journey to the Central...

Though yes it's pretty far, have to wake up earlier than usual, but after work it's kinda near my gym and so... i'm actually considering if i should really still opt for a posting to a school in the far East area where after work I have to drag my feet to the train station & travel from East to Raffles Place, then back to East again (Like super tedious isnt it?! -.-) Still thinking... Still thinking... (well... not like i have the power to make any decisions here!)

Anyway I pretty much enjoy my time at ACS (Barker) though, i mean... the CCPE jobscopes are pretty much okay~ though a little bit of Gebiz, like super LOTS of Cockpit entries & updates (seriously as busy as Bedok Town) seems like the CCPEs here are really working hard to their bones! But somehow just lack a little social life here. Ok.. as to, comparing the schools i'm in, i feel best, like really best, is at Bedok Town. Cos colleagues there are really friendly, you really feel to "home"... Any time down at canteen for breakfast, tea-break, lunch at lounge, chilling during the after-lunch pool sessions... seriously like Life there... (although it's hectic but at least 'Life' exists!!) is amazing...

In PRSS also not much of Life, after all i dont belong to the clique and it's kinda hard to be part of the group and get to the level of closeness among them. In ACS(Barker), basically, my direct colleagues in the PE Dept are all guys, range from late 20s to late 30s i guess? all married already, even though ya, they seem "cool", very sporty & active, and ya, guys are guys, since when it's easy for a young lady to be part of a grp of males who are much older than her?-.- well, maybe it just takes time for colleague-relationship to develop... but tt's not gonna happen when i'm leaving this friday already HAHA!

I'll be on an understudy (sort of like attachment) to Anglican High School as a potential CCPE being posted there. They have a new HOD PE/CCA though, and i did went for an interview earlier last week, they preferred a Male Chinese CCPE and must be well-versed in Mandarin. Haha. I kinda failed the criterias already but nevertheless, i was called down tmr to meet up with the new HOD. Wonder how things will go but anyway, just see how what's up for me. (:

It's been a great, unforgettable 3 weeks of Relief stay in Bedok Town Sec. Work load is indeed crazy. A few days i had to bring home stuff to do (imagine the workload man!) But nevertheless, the stay here is so full of warmth, peace, fun , joy, laughter , drama, a division of 2 schools ...

The best time spent in school are the times during breakfast, lunch, after-lunch-breaks with my colleagues. - especially with the presence of my neighbour. Until this last day here, I've grown to appreciate and love this special neighbour of mine. Dont misunderstand. Though 'Love' is a pretty strong word to associate with, this 'Love' is not the Love relationship that i've develop my feelings to a point I wish to 'own' him. Not to such an extent. I know that deep down in my heart, even if today both of us are single, I know the line is clear and still, I wouldn't want to have him in my life as my lover, (and no, i dont mean he is not a gd choice...) but he is someone i really wish i can keep, forever, as a good friend. a close friend. Because initially EVEN before I was attached or I've been single since day 1, every male friends I dont "aim" them as a potential partner-to-be. I've always wished we could develop to be really close/gd friends you know. And that's why, I longed for this friendship btwn us, me and him to develop more...

Guo Rong is outgoing. He is fun. He is funny. He is full of nonsense, full of drama. He never fails to make me laugh, (And His Laugh makes you laugh even more!), He makes me smile. He makes me happy. He is cute (at times...) & adorable too. He is so open, so horny. He is some1 you can talk to him abt anything under the Sun. Guo Rong is Amazing. Sometimes just observing him is like try to solve maths. You dont really know what he is up to next, what nonsense he is coming up with. He is someone whom I really respect him for being a filial son to his parents, to his Mum. I clearly remember every time(s) we had together, my journey to school may be a chore, but my time IN school, with such an Amazing neighbour, just makes my mornings & afternoons really wonderful, quality time spent, together with the rest.

From the day we started breakfast together, to the songs he listen, the random songs he sing, singing 'Valerie' at Mrs Siva, the character he has, his background, his talent in his favourite sport, the disco rock/cha-cha dance with Florence, the way Florence knows what HIS dance is all about, the touchy feels & the women, his story, his magic on the tissue paper, his daily jobscope in school, chasing of students, his pool skills, his unbelievable imitation skills and impersonating of people, his past life, those 'Special' Bananas from Florence, the Circle of Trust, he and his horny - the 'Super-Horny' Him, knowing of my daily packed food, my cinnamon chicken, my peanut butter chicken, my disgusting + 'he-actually-puked-out' oats of mine, my delicious fish fried brown rice which melt his heart, his treat on pao & drinks and lastly, till this day,the last day together with him. He made this final day so Special. So Chicken Rice taste good not just because of the flavour itself, & he knows popcorn is my love. He is so so thoughtful.

I learnt today how a friend can really treat you like Gold, not taking you for granted. He made me open my eyes to see what i used to think that Friendship can be comparable as much as a Love Relationship. I was never wrong. right from the start. If normal people can fanthom the basic behavior of treating the opposite sex this way, i dont see what is the excuse that others cant demonstrate such acts on their loved ones.

Guo Rong is really Special. He is a Gift. A 'Guy' friend i can never express to him how much i really treasure him as a Friend simply by normal talking to him or by my actions. It's all in my thoughts and the words i've expressed from my heart. right here.

(:

Thank you.

Only for today, this entry is gonna be rather long. Really. Be prepared. Cos this week has been a very.. how shld i say... oh man. its just... crazy. emotional. reluctant, falsely accused. and i dont know what to say... it is hard to describe how much i really really cant bear to let go.

For the entire week, i felt my life was really screwed to the max, i couldnt concentrate in my daily training at the gym, i'm mentally and emotionally miserable. Miserable in a sense, i had to bear the consequences of my complusive actions. I wasn't granted a 2nd chance for the mistake i made. God didnt let any miracles happen despite my prayers to him every day for the week.

My story is really long. I'll make the effort to share here what exactly happened so if you read some point some where it is just too draggy and long-winded, i'm fine with your decision to close this page. Because this entry is just a memory to me I can never forget, and a lesson for me to learn from my complusive action.

After suffering with boredom at work for 2 months, i made the decision to tender my resignation despite my manager's strong urge to stop me, or really, advise me to not resign. It's the company's policy that i had to serve my notice period of 2 months. That's fine. I wanted to serve for 2 months, in the school, but the management made arrangement (which i was told that i cant choose) that they have deployment plans to deploy a new staff to my school, in less than one month! I had the thought that while serving my 2 months notice period, anything can happen. I mean i may decide to retract my resignation to stay on in the school? who knows? but to them, they see me as, what if i really cannot take it and worse, want to leave the school asap, less than 2 months? Then they are going to have a headache because they dont have any spare staff..(but hello. i state there black and white, "I WISH TO SERVE MY NOTICE PERIOD OF 2 MONTHS... IN THE SCHOOL!!!) Moreover I'm aware since that i tendered my resignation b4 my contract of 1 year, i'm liable to pay a penalty of $2000. And come to think of it, I think it is rather not worth it to pay this amount if i just had to carry on for a few more months (3 months to be exact), then i dont have to pay. Ok. I've decided I want to save myself now. And my GM also "plays a nice man" wanting to save me by offering me a solution - taking up this special case, a 2 month contract offer at this private instituition, in that case, my resignation put on hold, and should i resign after that contract, i wont have to pay the penalty because my contract is alr over. OK! Set. I decided to take up the offer on the spot, no need considerations. I mean ya... that's my 1st choice as my solution to save myself from paying the penalty.... and my 2nd choice? i want to stay on in my current school, hence, i'll retract my resignation. then no need to pay already what. But guess what. Unfortunately, the management already deployed a new staff to my school in less than 1 month, and on that very day, i was informed that the 2 month contract offer at the private instituition, is gone. No more. Like wth? then how abt my 2nd choice then? I cant even retract to stay because they've already deployed a new staff to my school. In other words, I have to leave the school no matter what. WHAT IS THIS? How can they do such a thing to me... and they kinda just paint this picture to me saying - ' Sorry.-but-you-just-cannot-have-things-your-way.' Oh my God I'm just speechless.

Yes that sum up the story and more or less you can imagine what are the next things that I can roughly look forward to see it coming my way. I cant stay. They cant deploy the new staff to elsewhere because afterall, they dont have a school for her (now, for me!) So probably they might resort to releasing me early from the company, and still, liable to pay the penalty. Really.

No matter how much I felt so "betrayed" and unfair of how this boogus company made all these arrangements that I absolutely have no say in, I am just reluctant to accept this fact, worse, my colleagues understand my situation and tried ways and means to help me by suggesting i shld seek help from MOM. The best part is, the Ministry "helped" me by just a less than 3 mins phone call, regret to hear that the response was rather negative, in other words, my case was deemed as, "not their problem". Now that's a very, nice, excellent, appreciated-NOT 'help' from the Ministry.

Oh well, on my last day at work, things did not take a turn, what made me extremely hurt to the max was my boss had full of misunderstandings of me. It's really, everything ended with a load full of misunderstandings btwn us. He is a man of a few words, lots of assumptions while I am the one who just cant speak up and kept every hurt to myself. So as a result, our r/s ended very soured. He made it sound as if he was being blamed for my leave from the school. I could see his hatred in his eyes. He let me go, without even a formal Gd-bye. Those misunderstandings weren't cleared. My heart really shattered into pieces at how all these ended. I did a lot for him behind his back. He never knew. He never knew how much care & concern i showed to him, (even though he never asked for it or he dont even need it from me) but to me, at work, he is like my 'partner-at-work', my boss, he is someone i could take all kinds of shit from him and never bear any grudges on him because i know if he can choose a more, less-offending or less-hurting step, he wouldnt have done what he had did. Everyone would wish they could have a 2nd chance to the mistakes they make. Some had their chance, some didn't.

On my part, i couldn't have a 2nd chance any more. Maybe it is destined that God made such arrangements for me to regret. And probably he knew what my future will be like if I stayed on in the school. I just felt that i had so much to give to the school, but who knows, maybe in the future some things really bad might happen, and end up that my boss hates me even more, or worse, even the P also grow to have a very bad impression of me. When i leave right now, the only person who probably hates me now is only my boss. The P and all the other staff really cant bear to see me leave. So i shld look on the positive side as to how God has planned for me. There is bound to have someone hating me when i leave, is either 1 person, or many. He decided 1 will be better for me to handle rather than many. So his decision means, i should leave the school, now. Hence, alright, I shld respect his decision for me. He always wants the best for his children. We should trust him. Right? I miss my boss. I still hope God could open his eyes to let him change his impression of me even after i've left, in whatever ways he wants him to find out, any ways will do.

Anyway, some updates are, i'm gg to another school as a relief for 2-3 weeks. that's my situation for now for the month of sept. I'm not sure how i shld pray to God for what kind of miracle he can bless me with. Hopefully anything can happen in the month of sept, of which, i could be a relief in another school again? or probably be posted to somewhere... just whatever arrangements the company can do to spare me from paying the penalty. Ya. That's about it.

Weekends with you is always the best! most precious! And the most happiest! (: I love to train with you during the weekends. Always looking forward to it. (:

Can't believe it's my final week in PRSS. I seriously see myself still working in PRSS in the long run. But this vision seems to fade away. Like it is not going to happen because of the future. Or maybe God might just make miracles happen, for a reason.

I cant imagine my working life without Mr Chai anymore. Even though his never ending hurts to me just keep pilling and pilling. Words of anger and frustration blasted at me as his way of venting. Despite them, I cant deny that there are great and happy moments/memories worth thinking about. Ever since my existence, he would randomly see Yum Yum Munchies on his table especially Fridays (because he ends work very late on Fridays - he hates Friday the most!) I would text him when he just gone missing from school, asking his whereabouts (though I know he kinda feels irritated that i'm "stalking" him) I will never fail to show concern to him when he falls sick (so far it happens twice) I looked after him pretty well, reason being, he looks after me too (even though he doesnt show it) He is a boss, pretty difficult to work with, but has a very nice heart deep within.

I missed him when his car is not in school for those few hours...

I missed him more when he was in China for that 1 week...

I will miss him a lot... when i'm no longer in school. anymore.

=(

First and foremost, I'm in an utterly disgusting + horrible + absolutely FUBAR-state now.

1) I hav 2 damn bloody reddish, swollen, seriously-have-not been cured-for-good PIMPLES for the past 1 month.
2) If I am my hair, then seriously, I'm a lion now.
3) What else? so obvious. FAT
4) Cravings are keeping my fitness goals far far a long long distance away from me
5) I am just. getting. uglier. omg-_-

And then i saw a random picture of myself. sadly. in the past. So i'm just waiting for history to repeat itself... (OH PLS REPEAT ITSELF MAN!)

So maybe this WAS (I hate that i have to type 'WAS' instead of 'IS') me... at my best state. I feel so gorgeous.



I need to be stronger than before. whatever.

I just could barely see any visible muscles on my chest. 4 rows of my collar bones is just what i see.

So... when can i ever, ever, see my tendons at my legs? ever?

I just need to slash my fat tummy flat. Probably. I will find peace.

God bless my face.

Ritez... Tubbie is 12 weeks out, in prep for his nx Asian championships at Bangkok. I'm like gonna prep with him. I mean... I'm gonna "diet" with him. Yup. as promised. Hehe. How can i see him reluctantly eat chkn breast while i eat all the yum yum food like xiao long bao, bak ku teh etc. If he suffer, we'll suffer tgt. It's my job to be there for him, as always... (=

And been checking out on fitness models... I reallyyyy like this model a lot. She is my new inspiration, in terms of reaching my fitness goal.


Jenny Webb is her name.

Awwwwww.......... She looks so gorgeous! Seriously. Over the past few years, I've never failed to give up on working my ass off in the gym; be it doing hours and hours of cardio, and lifting those damn-weights for the sake of bringing out the leanness of my body. I've always wanted to strive towards them (but attempts made have failed due to my ill-discipline of not having a clean diet - which apparently is the main factor to a great body.) And I suppose its time that I shld really try to be more focused and work extremely hard once again.

You know what's the beauty of One's body? To be able to see a decent, nice pair of 'cobra-eyes' at your back, smokin' hot abs at your core (like who doesnt long to have them!!??), sexy legs (this is the toughest i must say!) and lean shoulders and i like the triceps shape (:

Look at Jenny's hot legs...

My goodness... its enough to blow you away. Imagine you can see your own leg muscles. It's really smth I must say it takes lots of determination to really build those legs man. Look at those quads!!

As much as I know I'm far from there, so its still a direction, a path you need to motivate yourself to go towards... there's what you call - Passion. Passion for a great physique. Everyone has their own passion in life. Even though deep down my passion isnt really towards building a gd physique (its actually smth else but i ain't gonna reveal it).. but i know that building a gd physique is still the foundation to my passion.

Everytime I see in facebook posts or seeing ppl taking the step to "keep fit" by starting to run, exercise etc. I always feel happy for them. Whether or not it is just a once in a blue moon activity for them, at least they did it rather than the option of staying at home, lepak on the sofa and handcuff themselves to the com and 24/7 updating their life, reporting to... facebook -_- There's so much i want to say, everyday, every single moment, how i feel, what i did which i feel so proud of myself and I just want to share the joy to all. If my actions could change a person's mindset and influence, or motivate a person to take one step closer towards a fitness lifestyle, then why not? I mean its really, for the benefit and no, absolutely no loss. You gain more confidence of yourself, a greater body, higher self esteem, Health improved, mood feeling better than before, people get attracted to you, people respect you, people admire you. How great a feeling isnt it? (:

Hehe. I will continue part 2 again. I'm feeling sleepy now. (Haha! Anti-climax man...) Alritez. Gd nite. Sorry. Rest is impt for recovery!!! Hehehe!!!

2 days ago, my chest ache like hell.

Today, my shoulders take a turn.

Yesterday, I got rather emotional. I really had enough. After almost a week ago i made the conclusion that my boss dislikes me, Ytd i had it enough. My week was a torture, bearing his oblivion of my presence. I realised that between the option of being treated harshly and being treated as if you were around, not needed, not wanted at all, the feeling of the 2nd option is worse than the 1st.

This treatment, is by far, the worst i ever had.

I finally poured out those tears that i've held back. It was way beyond what i can hold.

I know myself i was never a problematic worker. I dare to say, I am a gd worker and likeable by everyone. But this time, i never felt so defeated and emotionally + mentally "tortured" by him. Even if i were to move on somewhere, I still cant accept all I've done, ended up with such results and treatment.

And very quickly, my term of serving a year as a CCPE will come to a conclusion when Nov comes. Over the past 6 months working with Mr Chai, I realised I've grown under him. Grown to be tolerant to a nasty boss like him, tolerate his hot plus bad tempered-ness. His scoldings and shoutings at me over... issues that wasnt my fault to begin with or even the absolutely small matters. There are times he really hurt me so badly, till i really dont understand why do i deserve such treatment from him. Despite how "bad" he treats me, i can further conclude he doesnt like me at all. From the way he treats other colleagues and the way he treats me, its complete Heaven & Hell situation. If based on my performance as a CCPE, i know i'm different from the past CCPEs. I'm full of initiative, full of ideas and opinions and suggestions. I spot mistakes and errors. I identify them. Provide solutions to problems. But they weren't really appreciated. Instead i was deemed as 'over-doing'.

You know i really like working for Mr Chai, despite how difficult he is. But it just seems I'm not a worker he would want to appreciate, esp my strength and how i can benefit him. Sad.

OMG! How i wish i can turn back time and remain like this! Missed this "slimmer" me. Anyway... i seriously think i need to be vain for once... get myself all the whatever 'Women-feeling-conscious-abt-her-looks' all those necessary ways to achieve it. Like seriously i need manicure on my nails... a trimmed eyebrows soon... I just got a haircut today and seriously, i'm freaking pissed with my so-called "luck". Why on earth the previous haircuts of mine seriously sux to the core. There is practically no hair cut that i seriously think my money is worth being paid for. cheap or ex. seriously. NONE! Pathetic. And now i just think my hair sux for "NO-GOOD"! Absolutely. pissed!! -_-

I know my blog is getting inactive. And i wonder when was the last time Tubbie read my blog. haha.

Hello World,

It's almost a week or 2, after the Bodybuilding Nationals. And sadly, people aren't happy with the results that my boy won. All the obvious signs of disagreements with the judges decisions. Although it's a fact that the judge can never pleases everyone, i think it is basic form of respect that audience, and the contestants ought to respect the judges' decision. What upsets me the most is that it is human's reaction - to be more direct; those who are defeated, refused to acknowledge their results. But instead, blamed it on the judges' who apparently, are "blind" to judge.

If one is not happy with the federation of judges, the door is wide open. Kindly make your way and move on to another federation whom you think their judges are "professional" in your eyes and are, definitely, not "blind". Oh yea?

If you cant accept, leave the scene with a healthy sportsmanship attitude. Dont be a sour-grape and start playing the "blaming" game when results are not the way you want them to be. If you cant accept defeat, you can never grow. I say this, yes, i'm protecting my boy, that's because ppl thinks he doesnt deserve what he deserve, and this game ends up as it's not a fair game. Is playing Toto fair? Why some millionaires could just become one overnight, while some played for years and have never strike. Is this fair? So what? Not happy? Not happy... then dont play. You still want to try till you win, then welcome. So likewise, if this bodybuilding game is not fair, dont join. If you want to still keep on trying again, then welcome... and please, have sportsmanship by keeping that gap of yours shut when you lose. Simple.

General Elections this year - such a hot pot, kettle pot news these few days. And an out-of-the-blue Polling day cum Public Holiday falls on my special day. Well well, not a big issue on that.

Kinda hate politics cos its so complicated, who's telling the truth, who's cunning, who's up to no good? I'm really too stupid to think, maybe right now, being a first time voter and the sort-of the youngest generation (1989 babies could vote... 1990 onwards.. wait 5 years later...) yeah and what would a guinea pig here know, every single stories in a big big picture?

I still think, trusting my tubbie is still, the best option. Because he is never wrong. Although sometimes I really have a hard time trying to believe what he say, but it turns out that he, is always right about anything. Just anything. Why. I dont know why he is born this way. His thinking at first, baffles you ttm, but he always have a logical point at the end of every facts.

But all-in-all, yes. i think opposition should deserve some seatings in the parliament. May Aljunied GRC falls in the hands of WP. And seriously, Marine parade grc dont deserve to have Ms Tin Pei Ling (an insult to Ris Low) as a MP. I pity Goh, to me, Chiam didn give me an impression he is really that great. (Maybe in the eyes of many, he is a Something.) So where will Marine parade GRC ends up under? if you say PAP, yeah, not against the group, just totally, absolutely against 'Ris Low-Insult'. Maybe George Yeo shld replace TPL. So as to not put voters into difficult position. PAP really clever. Trying to push her in, by putting her together with Goh - a strong MP in the eyes of many. Hate this scheming tactic.

And due to the rising prices of HDB, think MBT is being hated by the many, but chances is, i still think PAP of Tampines GRC will emerge. NSP dont seem like a strong team unlike WP. As for my GRC, i do have a pretty good impression of the WP, but seems like my side, PAP are doing fine as well. So... either party wins, not much of an issue. Opposition seats in the parliament shld increase, certain areas where there's really strong oppositions.

May the best team wins.

May my life be better in the next 5 years, by then, would want to see again if my vote goes to PAP or the oppositions. I will see man... WP? i need to see you in my grc to know you are "working" despite not being elected. Haha!

No matter how tired I was after work, after trainings, I'd still find time to clear the cobwebs here. Hehehehe!!!

Welcoming April into my life, yes! finally big event; E6 Cluster is done! Coordinating & Planning was a pretty good experience. Thankfully my boss didnt scold me till very JL on that day (that's really surprising!) Haha. Anyway I hate to say this, but I think where I belong to, is not where I wanna stay on, to be with, to give my all to it, cause ultimately, I know I dont gain anything, from them. Yea. THEM. I shld belong somewhere, where at least I can see myself some prospects in life.

Aside from above, wanna be thankful to many things in my life. Thankful to my beloved Tubbie for being the best as always. He is always my support, my comfort, my listener, my mentor, my best friend, my partner, my boyfriend, my tubbie. (= Tubbie love, at times I couldnt significantly rmb how we spend every 29th tgt when no photographs/pictures had captured our precious time. Though some of the times we just trained at the gym, but I still looked forward to every great 29th with you.

I'm thankful, I didnt get cardiac arrest (lol!) - random!

I owe the whole world lots and lots of pictures. From Mel's bday dinner, to my sister's long belated home-prepared dinner, to my 3 days First Aid Course with fellow ccpes, to latest Mind's Cafe with sy and ade... tsk tsk tsk... lazy pig in da house.

Just toooo lazy. Even more lazy to even do manicure and pedicure. hahaha. ok... like finally i did it today. manicure. but pedicure... i just used a new nail polish to overwrite the old one (wth rite!) hahahahaha!!!

these few days pretty busy with work. Planning of post exam activities, assisting my boss in those logistics, budgeting for E6 cluster event on 9th April. Printing and lots of Printing...... haiz. I owe my boss a big 'Sorry'. =( cos i seemed to be neglecting his assignments that he asked me to do (for the E6 cluster event), till he have to chase me for it. =(

Sunday is the time with Tubbie love. Hope to have a good leg training this Sunday and would love to have a great time with him over the weekends... (=

*No quarrels pls!* haha!

When an sms was sent to the wrong party, you-know-how-it feels like.. rite? yes??

Had an interesting conversation with bev over dinner. Should marriage be based on love. only?? or other factors as well. One factor her mum's criteria was; the Man must be able to provide for the girl........

Then i just went to google on it. And guess what answers I get??

Answer:

"Should marriage be based on love or other factors?"

Love maybe a factor but it is also a partnership that should be looked upon as a business agreement. Everyone must bring something to the table.


Answer:
"Love... should be looked upon as a business agreement."

Untrue. A true loving marriage should never rely on who can or can't do something. If you go into a marriage expecting certain things to happen, then it is more of a contract than a covenant. A marriage is not meant to be looked at as something that "he does this, she does that" but should instead be "WE can work together to make things happen."

And what type of love is marriage based on?

Here's what i've found...


'Marriage used to be a wonderful thing that united to people who are in True Love. Now, most marriges are of marriages of convinence, because they want money, some-one to do jobs, take care of things they dont want to do, or for material items.

There is still some love in the world, and some times, people who are truly meant for each other get married, and the reason for their marrige is not convience, or money, but that love that they make. That love that is so true, and special it is theirs, and no-one can change that'

I'm now beginning to wonder... like ever since I had the thinking that love is not the pillar of life... and Tubbie corrected me that Love IS the pillar of life... yea... this is a debatable topic. I guess generation changes along the way. oh well~

Vday passed not long ago. Tubbie gave me one of the best card i ever had. I love to see his heartfelt words written on the card, specially for me. (= (Hehe! Visual personality of me!)


A very sweet card...


...with extermely meaningful, heartwarming words.

Tuubie's heartfelt words really touched my heart. (= I really love the Tubbie like this, a lot a lot!! (= In this post I want to let Tubbie know that I love you very much and thank you for making the effort to make me smile no matter what, no matter how much you really wished I could control my diet and refrain from eating those heavy densed, high sugar popcorns (esp from Garett!), nevertheless, you still give in to me. (= I love you dearest love (: (:

Next Up, WORK! My work revolves around My RO. Seriously. And he has a roller coaster mood. Sometimes good, tt's when the times joking with him is perfectly fine and I prefer him this way obviously, and there are times his face is black like king kong, you dont know when he is gonna blast at you. I have never hated him. No matter how many times I can tell he is super irritated by me, in fact deep down I know he is a really nice boss. I respect him a lot and I can take any shit from him, yeah, it is always, always better than taking other ppl's shit. like duh?! haha! Cos at work he is always there to protect me from shit work tt others throw at me. (= Hehe. Imagine my Tubbie at work, he will take care of me even more. Hehe. I will love working. No need to study liao. Haaaaaa!! ;P

Greetings love ones... ( deng.. deng deng deng~ ... from Katy Perry-California Gurls~ haha!)
3rd day of CNY and i have to get ready for tuition soon, at 10am. Today's post. Once again, i wanna mention smth that Tubbie love made an impact in my life. This silly boy is young and amazingly smart, full of common knowledge, EQ etc. (or maybe i'm just too amazingly stupid -.-)

If i say... Love is the pillar of life. How many would agree? Initially, i disagreed. I want to say that one shouldnt depend on love, that in life is not everything abt seeking for a partner. Because why? Because love can be amazing, but at the same time, love can hurt, love can kill. Love has its Angel and Devil side. Love can be dangerous, with the wrong ppl.

Tubbie made my thinking changed. It does makes sense in some ways though. Hmmmmz.

Today is sort of the first sunday since school term starts. And I really felt so "free". No commitment for tuition. Anyway, i'm suppose to motivate myself to try to cardio for 2hrs tdy but I failed. And thinking that tubbie wld be very upset with me, instead he said smth so heartwarming. He said," good enough. Its good enough (: " such simple words of encouragement I felt from him, really made me feel tt he sees my effort to cardio. He is so encouraging. I love him very much this way (:

Tubbie I love you!

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