guess what. Ytd was my virgin experience.. clubbing at the age of 21. O.M.G... Lagggggggg~~~~ Loserrrrr~~~~ ZzZZzZz!!! And the music was exceptionally L.O.U.D! i wonder how the heck ppl can tahan getting their ears busted with music by clubbing every single week bla bla bla~!~! Anyway we went to Rebel when we wanted to go Arena but no tables only standing tables available so in the end it was a no. Oh ya, the "we" is Tubbie and me with his platoon mates & sgt. There were i think 8 of us if i didn rmb wrongly. His platoon mates were not tt bad, i mean friendly, quite nice and rather pro dancers i must say. Haha. And funny in a sense, after drinking go dance and chiong to find girls. Hahaha. Tubbie's sgt is indeed, how he portray himself to be very "zai". Hahaha!! Find girls and yo ah yo.. yo until halfway the music stop and there's police spot check. HAHAHA! an abrupt moment back to reality! its damn funny esp his facial expression!!





Ytd was the day i really had a gd conversation with dance. in public. free and easy. But all in all i would give the music rating a 5/10 -_- it very techno-ish and i get bored hearing of it 50-70% of the time. Ratio of guys to girl is 10 : 1 which makes sgt damn sian jp. haha!

I got home late. and slept real late after talking to Tubbie for an hr on the phone after i got back. And the sad thing is, Tubbie was too sensitive last night, overprotective and unhappy that I said I find there's nth wrong dancing with friends (includes male) rather than only him. I dont know what you guys think in my perspective, different ppl have different perspective.. Dancing is FINE with me. But being touchy is a no-no. What abt dancing with strangers? (It was smth Tubbie did worry too) Yeah, but u know what, i'm actually quite scared also la haaaahaaaa!! You really think i DARE meh.. i'm not even that friendly to my neighbours or ppl whom i see almost everyday in the gym etc. . u think i welcome STRANGERS who i barely see for the 1st time in my life... and DANCE with them?? I will freak out la. seriously. I'm only comfortable with ppl whom i know or friends' friend. kinda. rather than complete strangers. That's a little way out of my limit.

So, i was hoping Tubbie could u know, dont feel "stress" or worry too much. Cos no one is gonna take advantage of me and i'm not gg let anyone bully me. full stop. Cool with it? (: Tubbie love, u've got HBP, pls cut down on your drinking (he drank terribly a lot ytd!) and caffeine as well.

Yeah. And... i've got a part time job now. HAHA. I wan to see how long i can tahan actually. hahahaha! i think its quite a joke. oops!

You know why I'm so SO pathetic? I got rejected for the CCPE job. what the ****!!!(fill-in-your-desired-4-lettered-words-of-your-choice.)

Just as I was abt to resort to fate and forget-it just listen to Mr Low's advice and apply for the relief teaching position in schools, (when behind the back of my mind I was seriously damn pissed with this bloody suggestion - in the 1st place i'm not interested to TEACH AT ALL!!!!!!!! ) then i looked at the date of today... 14 October 2010. Oh yeah... isnt school holidays coming??? RELIEF WHAT SHIT! RELIEF TABLES AND CHAIRS AND EMPTY CLASSROOMS WITH NOT A SINGLE SOUL IN UNIFORMS?????????
BULLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL-SHETTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH!!!

I felt even more pissed as I'm still out of job and I'm damn shit poor! You know how shit i feel when i have no money and there's lots of things i cant do. I cant get gifts for my lover, I can only envy how my friends who had been working for the past few months and how she can afford to buy Fossil Watch for her bf.... And what can i get for my lover? Nth. Just dinner. Home cooked dinner. full stop. Yeah. tt probably explains HOW MUCH i can afford for a ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY "gift" to him. How sad!

sucks man... SWAY!

It seems that whenever i hit that particular weight, i always end up drifting away. Can i really get wayyy pass it?? I feel I'm still unacceptably fat on photographs. Jus observe my round face and tt's the reason why i say so. Yea. Sad truth.

I mus say, this week was lonely without him. but i think at least i managed to pull thru it. Friday's movie alone was hmmm... even though the threatre sits probably only 10 ppl (cos its at such an early timing of 11.35am in the morning!) yeah... there were 4 couples; mixed/same genders... and i was the only one. But it was cool to have the whole popcorn to myself (:

I dont mind watching movie alone actually. but a companion is just a bonus. (: