Yesterday night, Tubbie left for Penang. I suddenly feel so empty without him =/ I remember last night on our last phone call, he said he hope i could cook smth for him when he comes back. As i looked thru my recipe books and internet recipes on Madeleines, i recalled our-one-and-only time i made breakfast for him in the morning b4 he heads to work.

I missed this day where I made him breakfast. I wished I could made hotcakes for him, sit by him and watch him eat my breakfast love for him. =(

Life is vulnerable and unpredictable in the outside world, away from your homeland. I pray hard he is safe and nth happens to him. Did i mention abt Bibi & Baba?




Baba on top of Bibi

I missed that special day when Tubbie could stay at my house overnight. (=


Tubbie with Baba and that sickening bolster!


Me and Bibi! Bibi is always the one is yellow!! Baba always wears all sort of bedsheet colours. hahaha!


I love you, Tubbie Love. (:

I miss you now. right now. I regretted the way i bit you farewell at Bugis ytd. I wished I could hug you tighter b4 you leave me.

I want to cook for you again... :(

While gymming today. I heard this catchy song. Not bad in terms of the beat and rhythm of the song. But when i heard someone's voice... i kinda suspect it was THIS band that is singing it... (becos i was thinking probably this is some Mark Anthony song or whatever - but it wasnt!) HAHAHA. the moment i go youtube and type the lyrics out. THERE IT IS!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B5Dc14h_3W0

HAHAHA!! I knew it!! BSB song! I can actually recognised AJ's voice Whahahahaha!!! I dont know why but i find it damn funny man (to myself la) cos instead of being able to hear Nick's voice, instead I recognised AJ's voice to be able to confirm this is a BSB song. hahaha!!

believe it or not. I was offered the job as nutritionist. But since there is a bond to it, automatically my parents are against it. Guess i've got to go for job interview this mon.

been doing research a lot. quite fun to discover new findings. haha. I must say, today's dinner was rather gd. Bake eggplant tastes goooddd (= heeez... Going to try coconut milk (yeah it IS coconut milk! you can laugh behind my back if you want) tmr. Hopefully it taste as acceptable as LF condensed milk. ritez...

I still dont believe in zero carb diet. It is killer. and detrimental to health. I would buy the facts on high calcium diet, Vit. C before workout etc.. cos i see for myself, thru my weight and fat mass. They show that they work.

Today was quite a rush for me. Am happy that i'm now in better terms with Tubbie, after talking things out ytd and he surprised me by coming to my house and waited for me for a few hours.

Alrights! Job interviews coming up one after another. Was hoping to quickly get job attached soon! So as not to disappoint my parents and I must stop relying on them to provide for me and give me allowance if not i feel damn bad!!

Tmr by hook or by crook I must do my back training. Actually I kinda love back training (= I really do. I'm beginning to love it more and more. Heehee!!

I have a goal, not fitness goal i'm refering to... I mean, i have a goal in terms of diet&nutrition. My goal here is to be able to create a Low GI mini bread that is 1 serving. A serving size suitable for an individual. I just love bread. And I must do my research and be able to formulate a delicious really LOW GI Bread with absolutely no refined flour, no refined/cane sugar etc. Yes! Diet Bread! I must invent one!!

Ytd was the first time I went Marina Barrage, but the day was horrendous! One of my worst wkend with my boyfriend. I'm pretty upset with the fact:
1) We didnt have what was "planned" to have a picnic (not including the mat) but the main focus is to sit down, enjoy the scenery and eat our packed food.
2) I had to walked alone to the bus stop of Marina Bay to catch the bus to Marina Barrage when it was planned then we wld go together.
3) Waiting for him - nvm. my eyes were fed with those dust/sand in the air when big construction trucks drive by(damn! there were LOTS of them ok!!)
4) FB has my D photos and he has yet to delete them after claiming it'd be done in "awhile" !!
5) He lift up my blouse IN PUBLIC!
6) He caught my unglam shot and still got the cheek to laugh.
7) I went home alone, tired, irritated, totally black-faced.

I hated yesterday. I hated him. Even though he put down his ego and pride as a MAN and was being shout at, by me in public, I still couldnt bring myself to think in his shoes how he felt letting a woman shout at him.I was overwhelmed with disgust and annoyance over his childishness and failure to understand me inside-out. He absolutely still dont understand me at all. I'm pretty sick and tired of him disrespecting me. Sometimes I really really want a breakup but he just simply refuses to let me go.

Life's misery just never seems to end.