Weekends with you is always the best! most precious! And the most happiest! (: I love to train with you during the weekends. Always looking forward to it. (:

Can't believe it's my final week in PRSS. I seriously see myself still working in PRSS in the long run. But this vision seems to fade away. Like it is not going to happen because of the future. Or maybe God might just make miracles happen, for a reason.

I cant imagine my working life without Mr Chai anymore. Even though his never ending hurts to me just keep pilling and pilling. Words of anger and frustration blasted at me as his way of venting. Despite them, I cant deny that there are great and happy moments/memories worth thinking about. Ever since my existence, he would randomly see Yum Yum Munchies on his table especially Fridays (because he ends work very late on Fridays - he hates Friday the most!) I would text him when he just gone missing from school, asking his whereabouts (though I know he kinda feels irritated that i'm "stalking" him) I will never fail to show concern to him when he falls sick (so far it happens twice) I looked after him pretty well, reason being, he looks after me too (even though he doesnt show it) He is a boss, pretty difficult to work with, but has a very nice heart deep within.

I missed him when his car is not in school for those few hours...

I missed him more when he was in China for that 1 week...

I will miss him a lot... when i'm no longer in school. anymore.

=(

First and foremost, I'm in an utterly disgusting + horrible + absolutely FUBAR-state now.

1) I hav 2 damn bloody reddish, swollen, seriously-have-not been cured-for-good PIMPLES for the past 1 month.
2) If I am my hair, then seriously, I'm a lion now.
3) What else? so obvious. FAT
4) Cravings are keeping my fitness goals far far a long long distance away from me
5) I am just. getting. uglier. omg-_-

And then i saw a random picture of myself. sadly. in the past. So i'm just waiting for history to repeat itself... (OH PLS REPEAT ITSELF MAN!)

So maybe this WAS (I hate that i have to type 'WAS' instead of 'IS') me... at my best state. I feel so gorgeous.



I need to be stronger than before. whatever.

I just could barely see any visible muscles on my chest. 4 rows of my collar bones is just what i see.

So... when can i ever, ever, see my tendons at my legs? ever?

I just need to slash my fat tummy flat. Probably. I will find peace.

God bless my face.

Ritez... Tubbie is 12 weeks out, in prep for his nx Asian championships at Bangkok. I'm like gonna prep with him. I mean... I'm gonna "diet" with him. Yup. as promised. Hehe. How can i see him reluctantly eat chkn breast while i eat all the yum yum food like xiao long bao, bak ku teh etc. If he suffer, we'll suffer tgt. It's my job to be there for him, as always... (=

And been checking out on fitness models... I reallyyyy like this model a lot. She is my new inspiration, in terms of reaching my fitness goal.


Jenny Webb is her name.

Awwwwww.......... She looks so gorgeous! Seriously. Over the past few years, I've never failed to give up on working my ass off in the gym; be it doing hours and hours of cardio, and lifting those damn-weights for the sake of bringing out the leanness of my body. I've always wanted to strive towards them (but attempts made have failed due to my ill-discipline of not having a clean diet - which apparently is the main factor to a great body.) And I suppose its time that I shld really try to be more focused and work extremely hard once again.

You know what's the beauty of One's body? To be able to see a decent, nice pair of 'cobra-eyes' at your back, smokin' hot abs at your core (like who doesnt long to have them!!??), sexy legs (this is the toughest i must say!) and lean shoulders and i like the triceps shape (:

Look at Jenny's hot legs...

My goodness... its enough to blow you away. Imagine you can see your own leg muscles. It's really smth I must say it takes lots of determination to really build those legs man. Look at those quads!!

As much as I know I'm far from there, so its still a direction, a path you need to motivate yourself to go towards... there's what you call - Passion. Passion for a great physique. Everyone has their own passion in life. Even though deep down my passion isnt really towards building a gd physique (its actually smth else but i ain't gonna reveal it).. but i know that building a gd physique is still the foundation to my passion.

Everytime I see in facebook posts or seeing ppl taking the step to "keep fit" by starting to run, exercise etc. I always feel happy for them. Whether or not it is just a once in a blue moon activity for them, at least they did it rather than the option of staying at home, lepak on the sofa and handcuff themselves to the com and 24/7 updating their life, reporting to... facebook -_- There's so much i want to say, everyday, every single moment, how i feel, what i did which i feel so proud of myself and I just want to share the joy to all. If my actions could change a person's mindset and influence, or motivate a person to take one step closer towards a fitness lifestyle, then why not? I mean its really, for the benefit and no, absolutely no loss. You gain more confidence of yourself, a greater body, higher self esteem, Health improved, mood feeling better than before, people get attracted to you, people respect you, people admire you. How great a feeling isnt it? (:

Hehe. I will continue part 2 again. I'm feeling sleepy now. (Haha! Anti-climax man...) Alritez. Gd nite. Sorry. Rest is impt for recovery!!! Hehehe!!!